Dec 28

 Husshhhhhh ! How much we confuse ourselves while making a decision. Whether its small or big doesnt matter, we think like an end of the world . Atleast me. Thinking a lot about whether should I take new iphone or not. And now by watching Ankur's video about not spending on materialistic things, my desire is again dipping down the road. It make sence though to not to invest that much of money on mobile as taking few more grands than my previous budget. 

I think I realised about what I want in my life more. What I will be doing with that priced phone. I was actually convincing myself by giving reasons like its the best UI, security, camera and all. Its true in one way but I forgot to ask very important question to me, Am I really disappointed with what I am using now (with android as I have to buy a phone sooner or later). I am actually not . I need to think with my brain not with my balls. Actually the pevious line is from a movie . And I dont remember its name , I think Its wolfs of the wallstreets. Let it be, I am going out of the subject line. 

Look, I have to connvince myself that I have to invest on my personal growth more than annythink. At least in my early 20s. I have to start some habits like gym, reading books, playing at weekends because I cant invest that much of time and money offciurse on my playing as well on gyms and all. Because alrready its consuming significant amount of money in petrol as conpared to spared hours .

Todays last thing . Bro, you need to say no. You act like bullshit whenever its time to give some commitment. You litterly say yes litterly Even though you cant make it , you say yes. look now tommorow you have to go obivio as you have fucking committed and say with smile that you cant make now for few days as I will be spending some quality time with my family in my village celebrating "Vel Amavsya". So make it crystal cleaar that take few secs to really understand the fture situation and then make any commmiitment to anyone.

Thats all today.

b-bye.